Is not something I am good at. Hopefully I will learn to worry less and go
with the flow more through this journey we are about to undertake. But, this has never been a skill of mine… Growing
up, my mom always called me a worry wort, and it remains true. I like to have plans, even just basic ones so
I feel like everything is under control, and in my control. Not having a plan and not knowing where I
should be and when causes me a lot of anxiety – even though every time we have
done it (like last summer) it has turned out great. And we have discovered places that would have
been overlooked otherwise.
That anxiety is why I don’t like rides at amusement parks
& carnivals. It gives someone else
control. Oh, did I mention that’s a trip
goal of ours? To hit as many amusement
parks as we can. The rest of the family
loves them. Lily convinced me to go on a
ride at Silverwood Theme Park last summer stating “It’s like a merry-go-round
that goes up and down too!” It was so
not like a merry-go-round!
That ride is a good analogy for how I feel about the house being
for sale right now. The ups and downs
and waiting for the next shift is making me crazy and wonder why I volunteered
to get on this ride.
The good news… We as a family are still firmly on the path
to making our adventure/ journey/ trip (What DO you call it when you choose to
uproot yourself & family, sell your belongings and set off without a firm
destination in mind?). Ummm, and why
does THAT not cause me anxiety??? (Simply
put, because it feels right.) But the
house… ARGH! The frustration puts a
damper on any progress we are making towards the goal of heading out.
And we are making progress!
Last weekend we put a deposit down on a fifth wheel and sold the tent
trailer. We pick up the RV on the 10th.
Maybe having my next house (on wheels) will help me let go of worrying about
the current house. Baby steps… Must… Let…
Go.
Things will happen the way they are meant to happen…
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